Monday, January 31, 2011

One year ago...

Today marks the one year anniversary of the beginning of my trip to the Dominican Republic and Haiti to do Earthquake relief. A trip that broke my heart in so many ways… and yet was one of the most incredible and rewarding experiences of my entire life.
The first two days of that trip we spent in the Dominican Republic, waiting to get a charter flight, as well as an air-slot, so that we could fly into Port au Prince. I remember the frustration of having to stay in the DR, when everything in my wanted to be in Haiti! And yet, to look back on that time now… it’s incredible to see how God had us there, at the perfect time, to do His will.
That first day in the DR, we were walking through the tourist section of the city, looking at the various shops. We went in one particular shop, and Jen and I worked our way through the crowded shop, to a back room where we found a couple chairs.


As we sat, waiting for the rest of the group, and wondering what the next few days would hold… we were approached by a young couple. The young girl timidly asked if we could speak Kreyol or Spanish, and her eyes immediately brightened when I told her I could. She proceeded to ask if we knew of any missions, or aid groups, who were giving out scholarships. Jeanie joined us…and the conversation that ensued left us all feeling like God had put us in that store for a purpose….
...Mirtha, the young Haitian woman who wanted to know about scholarships, proceeded to tell us that she had been in Business school in the Dominican Republic. Her mother had been living in Port au Prince, working to provide funds for her daughters schooling. The earthquake had destroyed her mother’s business, and left her mother injured. The young man with her, a friend from Port au Prince, had always dreamed of going to Medical school in the DR. He had been living in the DR for the past few months, trying to learn Spanish. He too had family living in Port au Prince, who were helping fund his education. Sadly, his parents had both been killed in the earthquake.
Mirtha asked if we knew of any places that were giving out scholarships to students, and then proceeded to tell us that she desperately wanted to continue her school but she didn’t know how she could. She told us that she had written letters to several international embassies, telling her story, and requesting a scholarship. We were touched by the passion and determination she had to continue her education, despite the tragedy that was going on around her. We started asking specifics about her school, and tuition fees. Every question we asked, she had a quick answer, and often proof that her story was true. We were especially touched when she explained to us that she had lost just about everything at her mother’s house in Port au Prince- and yet she had her Bible and a Hymn book, and she was satisfied.
As we talked, Jeanie felt very strongly that she was supposed to pay for Mirtha’s school tuition. After praying, and agreeing as a team that this was something we wanted to pursue, we told Mirtha. Her face, that before had been filled with desperation, now split into a smile of joy and relief. We confirmed the name of the school, and explained to her that we wanted to go to the school with her the following day. We exchanged phone numbers, promised to meet with her the next day at the school, and went on our way.
…And the following day, we had the opportunity to bless Mirtha. We met her at the school, confirmed that she was enrolled, and then paid her tuition for the year.


It was an incredible experience to see the excitement, joy, and happiness on her face. Her world was still far from perfect, but despite all that was going on around her, she knew her school, for the year, was safe. And more importantly, she knew she was loved…by our small team, but much more importantly, by her Heavenly Father. He had rewarded her faithfulness, and provided for her in her time of need.
And so, our earthquake relief trip began…

Monday, January 24, 2011

In the chaos, In confusion I know, You're sovereign still...

None But Jesus

In the quiet
In the stillness
I know, that you are God
In the secret
Of your presence
There I am restored
When you call I wont refuse
Each new day again I’ll choose
There is no one else for me
None but Jesus
Crucified to set me free
Now I live to bring him praise
In the chaos
In confusion, I know
You’re sovereign still
In the moment
Of my weakness
You give, me grace to do your will
So when you call I won’t delay
This my song, through all my days
There is no one else for me
None but Jesus
Crucified to set me free
Now I live to bring him praise
All my delight is in you Lord
All of my hope, all of my strength
All my delight is in you Lord
Forevermore
There is no one else for me
None but Jesus
Crucified to set me free
Now I live to bring him praise

by Hillsong

Friday, January 21, 2011

Today was my second day of NP clinical…so I had the opportunity to spend all day at the LaFayette Community Health Clinic shadowing and assisting a Nurse Practitioner. The patient population at this site is very diverse- which I love, as it gives me the opportunity to see a wide array of conditions and treatments. Today, we had a particularly high percentage of pediatric patients.
True to my character, I loved every child that came in and throughly enjoyed interacting with the children and their parents. At one point in the middle of the day, I found myself thinking- I love taking care of kids- I would gladly see kids all day! When my preceptor gave me the option of which patient to see, I always chose the pediatric patients over the adults in the room next door! This afternoon, as I was documenting exams and writing charts, I was again thinking about how much I enjoyed pediatrics, and the thought crossed my mind that I probably really would have enjoyed the Pediatric NP program.
This evening at theVault, I was talking to one of the girls who is in medical school at Upstate- and ended up telling her about my experience today. And how I was realizing just how much I enjoyed working with children. A little later, the service started, and then Eric began speaking about Vision. It was a great message…and at one point, he was brought out the importance of Prophesy and presbytery, as catalyzing factors for following our vision. As he spoke, I was reminded of a prophet who spoke at Richville Christian Fellowship several years ago- who prophesied over me. Two of the main things he said- were that I had 'missions feet,' and that I would go into the world, and love on kids! I haven't thought of that prophetic word in a long time... but as Eric spoke, I was reminded of the word, and also of the encounters I had today with children.
God is so faithful, and creative! There have been so many times recently where I have been awed by the creativity of God…and the way He gently reminds me that He is God, and He is in control!
Today was my second day of NP clinical…so I had the opportunity to spend all day at the LaFayette Community Health Clinic shadowing and assisting a Nurse Practitioner. The patient population at this site is very diverse- which I love, as it gives me the opportunity to see a wide array of conditions and treatments. Today, we had a particularly high percentage of pediatric patients.
True to my character, I loved every child that came in and throughly enjoyed interacting with the children and their parents. At one point in the middle of the day, I found myself thinking- I love taking care of kids- I would gladly see kids all day! When my preceptor gave me the option of which patient to see, I always chose the pediatric patients over the adults in the room next door! This afternoon, as I was documenting exams and writing charts, I was again thinking about how much I enjoyed pediatrics, and the thought crossed my mind that I probably really would have enjoyed the Pediatric NP program.
This evening at theVault, I was talking to one of the girls who is in medical school at Upstate- and ended up telling her about my experience today. And how I was realizing just how much I enjoyed working with children. A little later, the service started, and then Eric began speaking about Vision. It was a great message…and at one point, he was brought out the importance of Prophesy and presbytery, as catalyzing factors for following our vision. As he spoke, I was reminded of a prophet who spoke at Richville Christian Fellowship several years ago- who prophesied over me. Two of the main things he said- were that I had 'missions feet,' and that I would go into the world, and love on kids! I haven't thought of that prophetic word in a long time... but as Eric spoke, I was reminded of the word, and also of the encounters I had today with children.
God is so faithful, and creative! There have been so many times recently where I have been awed by the creativity of God…and the way He gently reminds me that He is God, and He is in control!

Tuesday, January 18, 2011

January 18
Four years ago today, after 91 years of life, my Grandfather passed from life on earth to life in eternity. I remember the phone call, my dad’s reaction to the news, and the tears and sadness that followed. My heart ached, knowing that he was gone, and yet there was a celebration of life, as he had lived a full life and had succeeded in so many things.
Now four years ago, I live in his house, and daily am reminded that he is not here. The past few days, and especially today, as I was reflecting on the anniversary of his death, my heart had a different ache. I wish I had known him. I wish I had had the opportunity to build a relationship with him, like I have with Grandma. I wish I had spent time with him, and made memories that would last forever. As these thoughts rushed through my mind, there was a twinge of regret. But then, I realized the opportunity I have now, to get to know my Grandmother, to build a relationship, and make memories that I will never forget. And not only with my Grandmother, but with all those around me. I have the opportunity to cherish each moment, and make it one that counts- both now and for eternity!
…and so, although I was unsure how to bring the subject up to my Grandmother, I decided to make sure she knew that I loved her, and that I cherished the relationship I have with her! Yesterday, I stopped on my way back here, and got her Chocolate Covered Pretzels-She loved them! And this evening, I stopped to get her flowers. As I walked through the floral department, I realized that throughout the day, the picture of the perfect bouquet had formed in my mind- and I would settle for nothing less! I walked through the whole department, and looked at every arrangement..until at last, I found the perfect one! As soon as I gave it to her, her eyes lit up, and I knew she loved it. She immediately displayed it in the living room- and commented on it repeatedly throughout the evening. And each time, I was reminded just how incredible an opportunity I have… and each time, I cherished the moments I have with her little more.


Monday, January 17, 2011

Safe
To the one who's dreams are falling all apart
And all you're left with is a tired and broken heart
I can tell by your eyes you think your on your own
But you're not alone
Have you heard of the One who can calm the raging seas
Gives sight to the blind, pull the lame up to their feet?
With a love so strong He'll never let you go
No, you're not alone
You will be safe in His arms
You will be safe in His arms
'Cause the hands that hold the world
Are holding your heart
This is the promise He made
He will be with You always
When everything is falling apart
You will be safe in His arms
Did you know that the voice that brings the dead to life
Is the very same voice that calls you now to rise?
So hear Him now, He's calling you home
You will never be alone
You will be safe in His arms
You will be safe in His arms
'Cause the hands that hold the world
Are holding your heart.
This is the promise He made
He will be with You always
When everything is falling apart
You will be safe in His arms
These are the hands that built the mountains
The hands that calm the seas
These are the arms that hold the heavens
They are holding you and me
These are hands that healed the leper
Pulled the lame up to their feet
These are the arms that were nailed to a cross
To break our chains and set us free
You will be safe in His arms
You will be safe in His arms
The hands that hold the world
Are holding your heart
This is the promise He made
He will be with You always
When everything is falling apart
You will be safe in His arms, safe in His arms
Safe in His arms
You will be safe, you will be safe
When everything is falling apart
You will be safe in His arms
-Phil Wickham

Sometimes…things just don’t feel like they are moving forward the way they are supposed to. Sometimes… things just don’t turn out the way we think they will, or should! But thankfully…He is always with us, He is always faithful, and we are always safe in His arms!

Wednesday, January 12, 2011

It’s hard to believe that it has been a whole year since the beautiful nation of Haiti was struck with one of history’s most devastating natural disasters! …I will never forget the brokenness I felt as I heard of the pain and suffering that the people of Haiti were experiencing. Although I was relieved that none of my personal friends were killed during the earthquake, it was crushing to know that so many people, so many family members of the people I care so much about, had been hurt and lost.
This song captures the thoughts, the feelings, and the hearts of so many…in such a beautiful way!


Are You Listening?
(I was hungry...You fed me. Naked...you clothed me. They will know us by our love. )

Can't imagine how it felt as you lay there Through the dark, through the heat, through the cold. With your friend, by your side Held his hand and watched him die And you cried as you prayed for his soul.

I can't imagine how it felt as you stood there Through the winds that would just not go away. Kiss my wife. Tell my son, 'My work on Earth is done.' You're the One that can still hear them say...

Is there anybody out there listening? And does anybody know my name? No, my friend we were not there, But we're here and we care... And yes, we feel your pain. And yes, we feel your pain.

I can't imagine how you felt as you sat there, Trying to hide the fear upon your face. As the Earth begins to cry And you ask the preacher, 'Why?' Tonight, we can hear the children say... Hear them say...

Is there anybody out there listening? And does anybody know my name? No, my friend we were not there But we're are here and we care And yes, we feel your pain.

And does anybody out there know me? (Do you know me?) Can you stop the clock, make this go away? (Make it go away) No, that cross you cannot bare But God can and He cares And yes, HE feels your pain. And yes, HE feels your pain.

He's been anybody see, Because my faith has gotten weak. Don't know how much more I can take Hear my heart and please don't deny.

Is there anybody out there listening? And does anybody know my name? Oh, my friend we were not there But we're here and we care And yes, we feel your pain.

Is there anybody out there listening? (Does anybody know?) Does anybody know my name? (Does anyone know my name?) Oh, my friend we were not there But I'm right here and I care And yes, (yes) we feel (i feel) your pain.

Does anybody out there know me? (Do you know me?) Then stop the clock and make this go away. (You can make this go away) No, that cross I cannot bare But He can and He cares. Yes, He feels your pain. Ooo...and yes, He feels your pain. Yes, He feels your pain. (Thank you, Jesus)

(The clock is ticking. We hear you. Oh my, oh my. We see you.) He's got the whole world in His hands. He's got the whole world in His hands. (You and me sister. You and me brother. My, my...) Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah Ooo, yeah, yeah yeah, yeah.

-Kirk Franklin & Friends